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Thursday, January 31, 2013
Mute
It seems there are so many times when I should have been or should be silent. I look at the world around me and gather that I should stay alert, but cautious. Maybe, that's the insight of a writer speaking. One who wants to watch the world go by and see what everyone does or is going to do without affecting the noticeable outcome. Just something new to put in the book. Something creative that I would have never thought of that he does every Tuesday night before he goes to bed. Quickly, type it up while you remember it and get every detail right. He'll never know that you stole it from him and used it as material. I heard the divorce rate is higher for people that share their personal lives with the general public. Maybe, I was wrong. Something that I'll never have to worry about since I'm not getting married any time soon. But, there is this strange sensation to tell. Your body quivers as you hold your fingers over the keyboard, and all at once all of your strange sensational stories are flowing out. Things that you promised never to tell or share with anyone. Let the world beware. You are a writer. What are you supposed to do? That's new material that you are sitting on and leaving to rot. You have to use every portion, like a good butcher. Every section of meat has to be divided so that the pack won't starve. Survival of the best at hiding their secrets. Do you ever get close to anyone? You hear the question as the light goes out, but you never answer it.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Chapter 12
More pain medication....
So, here I sit after finishing a new podcast, Chapter 13 to be exact. I feel like a gutted fish that has been held up by a meat hook to die in the cold winter sun. I think that people are listening to my podcast, but no one replies or responds and it is getting pretty lonely in here. My doctor's look of shock and amazment in regards to my healing process made my day today. She looked as if she had been thrown to the floor by a wild pack of monkey's. All kidding aside, I am about half way through the healing process and I am happy to almost be finished with the crying spells and the long and painful gritting of my teeth in the middle of the night as I try to switch to a new and much more comfortable position. I could use some help from the world right about now...some good luck and well, it doesn't look like it's coming any time soon...oh well, here I go...into the night..head deep in pain killers and hot tea....what only tries to kill you makes you stronger....and less patient in dealing with bullshit.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Saturday Night...Saturday Night...:)
So, here I sit...wondering if anyone is listening to the show and wondering why I haven't received any questions or comments...I would love to hear from everyone. Today went pretty well, by sick standards. Been trying to come out of my shell, I just feel so different and slightly strange as if I have been replaced by some body snatcher....read the book and saw the movie a couple of times...maybe, that is why I have been so tired....I am being replaced by some form of alien life and taken over...maybe, this is my last night on Earth and the pod people are going to take over and envelope me as one of their own....I have too much of an imagination....laying in bed at night, I still think that one of the children from "Salem's Lot" is going to come scratching on my window and telling me that "he commands it." Guess, I should lay off the pain killers. But, honestly all I have been taking for the last couple of weeks is Tylenol. Maybe I got a bad batch. I am going through hot flashes too. This being a woman thing is hard work. I think that I am just about finished with it...going to hand over my walking papers soon and retreat. But, in all honesty I can't understand why I still feel so badly. Going to my doctor's on Monday (if I can wake up long enough...lol)...and hoping to get some good news. Getting lots of writing done....so, that's a plus...appreciate all of the concern...now...comment on my show.....:)!!!!!! Love to all....hj
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Chapter 11
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Been trying to get better....
Hello everyone...
It's been quite a struggle getting to the point where I feel better...not up to par yet...but, getting there. I feel as if I have been taken apart and then put back together again, like some freak show science experiment. I am so used to typing what I want to say, that it has been a struggle for me to post podcasts...but, I am growing to like it and I appreciate everyone's remarks and likes. I have been feeling quite ill, dizzy and the like, as if I haven't slept for days. I find myself waking up and trying to stay up, but my eyes won't stay open and then the day has passed and I am in a drift again trying to find my way to shore. I will try and post here as much as possible....send me questions for the show....and share your thoughts...Thanks so much...hollis
It's been quite a struggle getting to the point where I feel better...not up to par yet...but, getting there. I feel as if I have been taken apart and then put back together again, like some freak show science experiment. I am so used to typing what I want to say, that it has been a struggle for me to post podcasts...but, I am growing to like it and I appreciate everyone's remarks and likes. I have been feeling quite ill, dizzy and the like, as if I haven't slept for days. I find myself waking up and trying to stay up, but my eyes won't stay open and then the day has passed and I am in a drift again trying to find my way to shore. I will try and post here as much as possible....send me questions for the show....and share your thoughts...Thanks so much...hollis
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Chapter 10
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Saturday, January 5, 2013
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