Halloween 2013.

Wonder

What you choose

to be

makes me forget

what you are

how mistakes

change us

the power

they play

guarded shadows

will fall

and the dead

will bury

their own.

Side

Willful creatures

displeased

how torture

impactful fingerprints

the

acid

wax

Super Human

How often

do we blur

friction solved

the complaints

sky high

caught 

on the 

endless tongue

praying 

for release.

Ordinary

Conclusion

Speak hopeful

weak knees

mild arms

the sun/drifts

cold heart

sweeping hands

do not 

fulfill

Memorial

Families walk

bloody feet

The cold patience

hurt hard

over the coals

scream 

while 

you 

can

Conquer

Travel over

the sweet bliss

carry your knife

high on the hip

it has been known

before

and will be

again.

Reanimate

Can you

crouch

in the shadows

brat boiled

quick lightning

covered in rags

the eyes

see nothing

what man

ragged and worn

care often

for those

who desert

pick me

cry louder

scream

for me

lend me

your voice

how often

do we 

beg

Chapter 90: "Amazing: Everyday"

Wonderful people and places at "The Rainbow Festival;" SGI at "The Rainbow Festival;" The lechery of a cruel stranger; The advancement of "We, James;" Contacting me for my 100th chapter and for my Halloween chapter; "Carrie;" "The Shining" and "Doctor Sleep;" My adoration of Stephen King (I'm your number one fan"-I shouldn't say that too "Misery" like; The fantastic and fun Kristen Stratton and her Etsy shop "KnotsToAshes" which you can find and follow at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/KnotsToAshes, www.knotstoashes.com, and www.facebook.com/KnotsToAshes; Amazing friend and writer Jimmy Reed and more of his series "A Thousand Years of Darkness;" Reading from "Asylum;" Oscar and his bad dream; Much love to all of my listeners!!!!! :)...<3

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Chapter 89: "Betty"

Taking time away from technology; Post traumatic stress disorder, and the continued fear of my father; Wanting to continue addressing the positive, and the negative space within poetry; The awesomeness of seeing pages of "We, James" come in that are lettered and inked; Come and see me on the 19th and 20th of this month at the SGI booth at "The Rainbow Festival"-I'll be there both days; Cute and cuddly artist Jackie and her fantastic Etsy shop "UsagiRabbit" which can be found at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/UsagiRabbit; The next chapter in the series "A Thousand Years of Darkness" from my good friend and fantastic writer Jimmy Reed's segment "Notions of the Damned;" Reading from "Asylum;" Submitting to my 100th chapter/show and my Halloween chapter/show; Tons of love to you all!!!! :)

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Some seven.

Every
touch
restricted
the deadly cut
play pretend
tell me
that you
love me
if only
for a brief
turn of the page
cycle
cycle
turn to dust
die
giant
possessing nothing
but the sweet
cold
hopeless romantic
that dreams.

Authentic
Natural
swept flies
the guests
sweet songs
piano rising
the keys surface
gone
life lived
back between
childhood
these empty days
the blue
eye shadow
emotional
purgatory
the caress
the blades
of guns
watching
and
waiting

Made
How often
the points
pin down
mountains
the warbled
imagination
rise
head up
the short
swift cuts
on middle finger
and
index
pose
pale
from the blood
quick
breath big gulps
e m p t y

Application
blue
pool cube
the complex
circle
empty and row
thick skin beat
how vultures
tear
the pace
of the game
naked necks
taking meat
love your buddy
monitor the skies
starlings
following
the flies
exploit the feast
empty
bulging with stars.

Well.
thin
the size creeps
i dare
not answer
the door

Loud
How
they cry
silk
the surprise
of the night
this empty
word
called
love.

tell
down broken
push silly
sharp teeth

Chapter 88: "Did you know that Frida Kahlo had a wooden leg?"

Attending "The Sunnyslope Art Walk" and trying to take some of our kids (dogs;) Getting 7 inches of my hair cut off; The month of Stephen King; Seeing the first pages of "We,James" illustrated and lettered....AWESOME!!!!; Working on chapter/book five for "We, James;" Gothic and loving creator Jennifer Speedie and her amazing Etsy shop "CrowHouseDolls" which can be found at: https://www.etsy.com/shop/CrowHouseDolls and you can also find her at: jennie028 on ebay and on her Facebook page at: https://www.facebook.com/jennifer.speedie.9?fref=ts; My good friend writer Jimmy Reed and the conclusion to his chapter "Ben" from his series "A Thousand Years of Darkness;" Submitting for my 100th chapter/show and my Halloween chapter/show; Reading from "Asylum;" SGI at "The Rainbow Festival" on the 19th and 20th of this month....I'll be there both days....come and say "Hi"....Thank you all so very much!!!! Much love to each and every one of you!!!! :)

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Chapter 87

Getting back on track with my weight loss; Being a writing fanatic; "American Horror Story: Coven" and Madame LaLaurie; Submitting for my 100th chapter and my Halloween chapter; SGI and "The Rainbow Festival;" Reading my SGI speech/experience; Being told VNS will not work; Wanting Corey to have his independence back; Taking on "horror" in a brand new way; Disliking the "happy ending;" The Magnificent Jenny Rose and her Etsy shop "RememberADay" which you can find at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/RememberADay; Intricate and beautiful artist Mannon Becklund and her Etsy shop "CandleBrightCreation," which you can find at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/CandleBrightCreation; Poems from writer and friend Jimmy Reed in his segment "Notions of the Damned;" Reading from "Asylum;" Much love to my listeners....<3...<3...xox...I adore you all!!!! :)

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A mix of seven......

Know
If I
catch you
hands burning
ash
the simple
words
of death
made clear
crystal
tone on tone
if I
catch you
handcuffs
pressed
imaginary sin
cardinal boats
the
chance
the
wish
of freedom
tied
pressed lips
warm
involved
caught.

Birthday
mother
not known
the surrendering squid
testimony
crinkled nose
hesitation grown
home bought
the sweet
savor
click
the musical notes
linger
counting down
empty ruins
clots caught
in the blood
of pilgrims
the sweeping
sand
suffers the
sin.

Alone
They said it three times
headlights of a car square straight
stop being absent

With
Place hand
around waist
kiss cheek
hold hand
the gentle sway
of the ballroom
floor
shoes shuffling
missed step
or two
I wander back
towards the piano
picking keys
I turn
and smile.

Blood
Hold onto
the secret world
empty words
of foolish mouths
pray bound
from the
deepest holes
quick
the kindness
crouches
single minded
over winds
placed by
seamless beams
of tall passes
bridges
burned
the fragile turns
how we
drift
immortal

Requiem
pass
glasses tucked
under hand
pale
and
curved
the cold dust
drunk with power
give me mercy

Ragged
Down drunk
world crushed
the small fingers
hooked
around mine
I turn
and breath
into the fog
settle
into the storm

Chapter 86

Technical difficulties; Giving a speech and getting an unexpected reaction; The one creepy thing that happened when I was alone; Not expecting "nice" people; Working on my communication skills; Looking/accepting for submissions for my 100th chapter and my Halloween show; Trying not to overreact; My awesome interview with Etsy artist Pam Woods and her extraordinary shop "S.Drawkcab Designs"-Look there for beautiful one of a kind pieces-You can find her at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/sdrawkcabdesigns; Good friend and amazing writer Jimmy Reed and his segment "Notions of the Damned" where we are continuing to read from his series "A Thousand Years of Darkness;" Amazing illustrations for "We, James;" Reading from "Asylum;" SGI is going to be at the "Rainbow Festival" on October 19-20 from 9 in the morning to 6 in the evening-Come say hello, if you would like...I'll be at the SGI Booth for both days!!!! :); Tons of love to my listeners-I adore you guys!!!! :)-Thank you so very much!!!!

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Chapter 85

Feeling shy; Being comfortable being alone; Writing frustrations; "We, James;" My wonderful friend and artist Heidi Price and her shop,"TheBubblingCauldron" which can be found at: www.TheBubblingCauldronBath.com, www.TheBubblingCauldron.etsy.com, and www.HeidisHandmades.com - Listen for a special coupon code just for "Myriads of Thought" listeners; Good friend writer Jimmy Reed and his segment "Notions of the Damned;" Reading from "Asylum;" Stephen King's "Doctor Sleep;" Submitting to my 100th chapter and Halloween show; Being lost within your own focus; Having an emotional connection to your work; Being in a writing limbo; Much sincere love and thanks to all of my listeners!!!! :)...<3

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A collection of twenty....

Witch

I am

an imagination

swarmed hives

of 

black

faded grass

silk rubbing

trudging above

cold water

pressing 

coffins

a dead

mans kiss

sweep through 

the rubbish

torn

and 

black

and 

blue

press

your lips

wet

against the flesh

and 

I 

rise.

Drowned

Warmed up

suit of armor

gold tulips

plunged hot

against the

sweet sweeps

of honey

plastic

snapping 

neck

the 

slow

burn

wrists swallowed

by cotton

sirens

of birds

fall desperately

to the ground

the endless sound 

of peace

Thirteen

Three

the cord

breaks freely

it's 

long 

scales

beating down

the sweeping doors

of 

endless keys

rush past 

the 

squirming crowd

of 

soldiers spinning

dance in tune

holding hands

spin

lick

fungus creeps 

into the passive light

Sisters

Midnight

beer

babies swallowed

his arms 

laying 

on the ground

on the steel

crusted eyes 

of the dead

empty

your knife

quickly 

towards the 

empty bridge 

soon it will

be morning.

Wizard

Truth

tingles

the tongue

open him up

fresh heart

beating wise

now hopeful

old rocker

beaming gold

glowing

morning dew

I keep 

the car

steady

collecting dust

over 

an endless road

one square inch

at a time

into the 

poppy field.

Baby

Traveling 

on the sleek

shoulders

of those

who wander

creeping

empty

in the moonlit

room

the sweet 

smell of 

tiny collarbones

shattered

into course

grains

that flock

one mistake 

over 

another

juicy 

crypts

the organs 

of the kind

between the folds

of her legs

there is 

nothing sweeter

The Family Table

Go 

home

close

your 

eyes

pull the covers

over your head

there isn't

a place 

to hide

crawl back

into the place

that used 

to be safe

long strands

of hair

curled into

a warm kitchen sink

sweater falls

from her shoulders

glazing into

the dark

there is nothing 

to hold onto

I crawl 

into the space

between the shower

and the sink

get tiny

into that 

invisible hole

play

musical chairs

in the 

dark

the smell 

of pumpkin

and I am 

satisfied. 

22

Sneezing

in your sleep

Grandpa

awake in the night

broken windows

the beams of light

dear

tree

fruit falling

bare

breasts

the sunlight

breaking down

ravenous

the hunger

takes over

grind

front

and 

back

hips against

waist

pleased to free

life rushed smoke

the hands 

of a man 

man

rush kind.

Alarm

Strawberry

soap

half bottle

of wine

dipping into 

the bubbles

caught down

spiral staircases

drained 

empty

I collect 

my things

and walk away.

Everything

Beaten

bicycle

gray

against 

the soil

born 

corrupted

the 

beetles bask

millions morbid

late starts 

shadow over

ringing ears

faded in 

the actuality.  

Illuminate

Flesh carpeted dry

Number Nine following close

fresh pears in a bowl

The Keep

Search

the woods

dig

the married man

full deep

greatness

hidden

patients

wander

over fields

of golden grain

there isn't 

a place

mirror high

miracles damp

walking into

the street

alone

broken

from the night

echoing broad

beams of light

footsteps far

across the floor

interrupt the counselor

apologize

common ground

I haven't 

found 

the empty

shell

slapped red

kicked hot

mercury laws

of 

pure ground

seeds

I  plant.

Never

Bugs nest

in the frays 

of a wedding dress

Santa Monica boulevard

flower drenched

parade of lights

plan on 

a century 

ago.

Hospice

Cries

of desperation

oh you fiends 

of righteous 

anarchy

pressed 

high

horizons

blasts

of gold

I hold 

your hand

set in 

mercy.

Quick

Honey

trickled

straight

from the vine

Blue smoke

the stuff 

of nightmares

the rolling hills

peaked 

at prime

drew large 

by sleeplessness

nights weary

gentlemen

coats blazing

with steam

there sits the 

many

arms 

around 

the few

embraced

how tiny

we are.

Maybe

Voice harbored

at the corner 

of my neck

whisper 

to me

long and hard

the strings 

of your heart

humming

quick 

flow

over and over

without lies.

Render

Rings

twisted

into twine

the needles 

run sharp

branches high

the bringers come

barricade yourselves

over the walls

I brand

the seamless 

trunk

powered by luck

and not by skill

How cruel

these simple words

that he

refuses to speak

A simple offense.

tackle quickly

and pitch 

how often 

do we

fly.

Underwater

Break the branch

snap the twig

over spines

fused 

with clear

and clever 

words

All this 

is a 

game

hold your breath.

Coordinates

My recovery

speedy

the shifting 

gears

moan to sigh

tremble courage

runes turn

soft

on the careless sun

I don't 

do not

weep

how often

to refuse

engage further

for the 

small beast

mistake

flaw

empty

kind bullets 

of fear.

Corridor

How brief

the seconds

where your lips

meet mine

tremble

close

There speaks 

the truth

venturing

quick and cruel

with the softness

of a 

vipers touch

The venom soars

through faulty veins

alone

equipped for death

The wait

smooth

bouncing 

over

my tongue

quiet

hands

unavoidable

the endless supply

of oxygen

lucky

Chapter 84

Friends Katie and Tori join in on the podcasting fun; Talk of ghosts and things that go bump in the night; What scares us?; Katie explains why she loves "We,James"-so far; Add wine to the mix; Wonderful artist and individual Debs Sherry-Brennan and her Etsy shop "sweetygreetings" which you can find at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/sweetygreetings; October coupon time for "DrakonsLair" when you use the coupon code mentioned in this chapter, you receive 10% off everything in the store beginning October 1st at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/DrakonsLair; Good friend writer Jimmy Reed's segment: "Notions of the Damned;" Reading from "Asylum;" Plus a few more surprises; Don't forget to contact me for my 100th chapter and my Halloween chapter as well; Much love to all my listeners!!!! :)....Thank you all so very much!!!! :)

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Chapter 83

Happy moments of music; Remembering my father playing an alto sax; The roller coaster like excitement of writing "We, James" Chapter/Book Five; Stephen King's "Doctor Sleep;" My dear friend "TheMad Tea Faerie (interview hopefully coming up soon, but you can find her at: https://www.facebook.com/TheBleedingLeafTeaCo;)I adore her tea!!!!; Lotus Currier and her amazingly and hauntingly beautiful "Handmade OOAK Art Dolls" which you can find at her shop "Lotus Asylum": http://www.etsy.com/shop/LotusAsylum; My favorite doll of hers is "Efthemia;" You can also find Lotus at: Facebook.com/lotusasylum, lotusasylum.blogspot.com, and https://www.etsy.com/shop/oldsoulsoap; Cool woman (who I'd love to have a few drinks with)Lisa Sumner and her Etsy shop "Just Cool Records" which you can find at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/JustCoolRecords; You can also find Lisa at: www.justcoolrecords.com,
www.discogs.com/justcoolrecords, Twitter @justcoolrecords, Facebook Fan Page as JustCoolRecords, Instagram @justcoolrecords, Tumblr @justcoolrecords, Pinterest as JustCoolRecords,alwritetea.blogspot.com, and www.hubpages.com/alwritetea ; Plus my good friend and awesome writer Jimmy Reed and his segment "Notions of the Damned" where we go into the second edition of his series "A Thousand Years of Darkness," Preparing for Chapter 100 and my Halloween special; Sharing an experience soon at The SGI Culture Center; Over 20 hours of non-stop writing; Love to all of my listeners; I'd love to hear from you-contact me through "Myriads of Thought;" <3....<3

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Chapter 82

Going back to therapy after 10 months; My first therapy session; The "money" that my father left me; Beginning to write Chapter/Book five of "We, James;" 31 pounds still; Being called a "skinny girl;" Preparing for Chapter 100 and my Halloween show; Being the "Scream/Horror Queen of Abnormal Entertainment; Doing an "early" podcast; Going over an hour; Waiting for Juels' Yoga DVD; Amazing and super sweet artist Leisa Waldron, and her shop "thesilverloft" which you can find at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/thesilverloft; Awesome artist Jason Kihl and his shop "zedszombieranch" which you can find on Etsy at: http://www.etsy.com/shop/zedszombieranch (Check out their shops!!!! They rock!!!!); Good friend writer Jimmy Reed and his segment "Notions of the Damned;" Reading from "Asylum;" Love to all my listeners!!!!! Thank you all!!!!! :)

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